regardless of fault

that i forgive
myself

that i forgive
others

that i accept
receive
believe
the forgiveness
i am offered

that i keep forgiving
over and over
for as long as i am able

that i keep accepting
over and over
for as long as i am able

forgiveness, giving and receiving,
is the only thing worth focusing
my energies
my mind
my actions
on at this point

i believe the one who calls
calls me by name
would have this of me
it is the best i can do right now

it is all i could muster yesterday
it is all i can muster today
i hope it is what i muster tomorrow

forgiveness.

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anger
blame
shame
defense
offense
rationalization
justification
judgment
enforcement
punishment
wrath

at self or others
are of no value to my soul
they serve no one

they only hurt
me
they only hurt
others
they only cause
hurt

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i so suck at silence
but i really do try
no matter what others think
i do try

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i so suck at word usage as well
"irregardless" of my intent