Yes. I think this is so...

"You will only grieve something that means something to you...Grief is actually a way of honoring"

Yup. But I do need to keep getting on with it. I do need to really reestablish living outside of grief. It is time Kathy.

Life things I learned during my time at I-Park (things I need to):

• Develop a rhythm to my day and need to figure out how to establish it in any environment;
• Create a nest, a physical space to call home;
• Have regular access and nearness to green;
• Keep focusing on my surrounds--listening, seeing, smelling, touching--which helps me be alive, so I need to focus (writing helps with this).
• Hand off things I am not built for--I am not an administrator or manager (though I already knew this), I need to let some of these types of things be passed on to others;
• Hold my breath more often before speaking, making more room for truly hearing not just the words but the soul;
• Continue looking, recognizing, focusing on and sharing the gifts I am given;
• Remember and practice writing which helps me focus on living, helps me be present;
• Allow myself to finish mourning my losses;
• Envision and dream of a future (without vision the people perish) and move towards it;
• Continue to recognize that God is not punitive, I do not have to look over my shoulder for his wrath--this is simply a lie I have been told--this lie has been repeatedly proven false; 
• Know that god is infinitely good even when it makes no sense at all; Look for the goodness Kathy. I will and am.