the sacredness of who God has made me this defines meit is who i am

do my actions reflect who God has and is making me?
do my actions reflect the very thing i despise?

in ten years will my actions i take today
make me thankful
for who God has been making me and
that i choose to walk in that now
or in ten years will I despise myself?

will i choose actions based on how someone else behaves or believes?
or will i choose courageous loving, valuing actions based on who i really am?

i cannot change past actions

the actions of today,
with these i have the option of choosing
choosing actions that reflect who i really am
and i do know who i am
both strength and weaknesses
both gifts and wrongdoings

do my friends and my family
help me choose to be who i really am,
who i was created to be?
or do they promote actions or inactions
that replicate a history of hurt?

i choose actions today that reflect who God has and is making me
i choose friends and family who help me be who i really am

will i gift to you honoring the sacredness
of who you really are
who you were created to be
i will
will i forgive myself for
not always choosing to do this
i will
do i accept my creator's intervention and forgiveness
i do

do i forgive you
for not always knowing how to
honor the sacredness of my being
absolutely
i do

each day as i move forward
i will continue to awaken
stand up, pick up my mat
and walk and i will continue
to choose
to forgive
to have mercy
to act in love
to show value
to cherish
to have courage
to exercise fortitude
to accept healing

i do know who i am
whether you see me or not
whether you believe me or not
whether you value me or not
i choose to no longer
allow this to define me

have my past actions
when i chose to act out
of my history of hurt
hurt you
absolutely
devastatingly so
have my past actions
when i chose to act out
of who i am
cherish you
absolutely

do the actions you choose
when you act out
of your history of hurt
hurt me
absolutely
devastatingly so
do the actions you choose
when you act out
of who you really are
cherish me
absolutely

but the sacredness of who God has made me
this defines me
it is who i am

i will hold on to that
i will act out of that

for better or worse
for richer or poorer
i will hold on to the
sacredness of who God
has made me

revolution

"without voice there is no revolution" - Thomas Merton

revolution of change

it can be the revolution of division
or it can be the revolution of healing
at this point it is a revolution

revolution is revolution

revolution requires energy
heroic efforts
troop support
fortitude

what kind of revolution will be chosen

there will be casualties
there will be damage
there may be death
i will cry

it will require strategy
planning
it will require implementation
it will require fear and grief
to temporarily be set aside
it will require things that do not aid
to be released, set aside

it requires loyalty to the cause
it requires intentional actions to be taken
as well as intentional inactions to be allowed
it requires silence, listening
it requires communicating, voice
it requires truth
it requires personal responsibility
it requires forgiveness
it requires mutual support
it requires comforting
it requires sacrifices
it requires some needs to be temporarily set aside

revolution, either, both of which
are the revolution of change
requires much

will there be a revolution
will there be change

there is another option
it is the option for no revolution
this is the option of pretend
this is the option were there is no voice
with pretend there is only illusion
with pretend there is no change
with pretend there is no healing
there are no real people with pretend
only phantoms living someone else's life
pretend is an option

i choose to have voice
i choose the revolution of change
i choose the revolution of healing