2012 day 2 or 3 of reaclimitizing | a slouchy hunkering down

the beast and I have to decided to slouch about and do nothing toward dream future casting or maintenance today. just slouch about, watch a movie, eat edamame until I pop...and laundry and dust and put away and... why is it hard to really take a day off without feeling I am doing something wrong? because it feels like numbing out (neg connotations) and juggling one handed always feels precarious as though its all about to crash down and I want to stay awake in the living, but I need a bit of numbing today (not num bum). perhaps long drive left over blah and still a bit of residual community withdrawal as I hunker down at the hermitage for first night back.